Friday, May 4, 2012
I am a novelist
They were asking what I wanted to do (you know, in college, when I grow up, etc. etc.) And rather than say 'I want to be a novelist' I said 'I am a novelist.'
It felt a little strange to say. Usually I say 'I'm a writer.' But I've spent the last week working every moment I could on the first 55 pages of a novel for a deadline that has been weighing especially heavy on me. So when she asked, I didn't say 'writer'. I said 'novelist'.
I think I'll use that word more often. I'll still say 'writer' sometimes, but 'novelist' is more specific, y'know? 'Writer' can mean a lot of things. Poets are writers. Playwrights are writers. Journalists are writers. And though I have dabbled in poetry, plays, and journalistic style pieces, my heart and the bulk of my many hours writing has been in novels.
So here's to specificity, and may I be forgiven for the many times I have said 'I don't know' or played the vague answer card when asked what I want to do, because I was afraid that people would think I was stupid for wanting that instead of wanting to be a CEO or a doctor or something. No more vagueness. Specificity and honesty. Let people think what they want.